$150, or pay what you can
This is an official collab with Sacred Space Midwifery
Reclaim your space with a postpartum healing session. The 4th Trimester journey is very real, and conscious energy work and healing can help any new or veteran mother return to herself.
Together, Tiffany and Jessica will create a powerful ritual and ceremony that combines both of their talents and expertise into one session, including:
My journey to full postpartum healing has been a wild ride. It's really hard with a newborn baby to slow down enough to even realize something is wrong. While I await blood test results and official diagnoses, we know that I am showing clear symptoms of Postpartum Anxiety, Adrenal Fatigue, and Inflamed Thyroid. Besides awful fatigue and sluggishness, I can feel something is wrong because I have yet to receive my period again. Lack of period is really common for exclusively breastfeeding mamas, but due to my insufficient ducts, I am not able to breastfeed very much. So the absence of my menstrual cycle points to other issues.
As one of those hippy-dippy-full-moon-ritual-cover-me-in-crystals mystical mamas, my moon cycle is VERY important to me. Without birth control or external hormones, my cycle pre-pregnancy was 28 days exactly, often falling on the full moon. My period each month reminds me to release, let go, shed, and start again. I also feel the most psychic and in tune with myself and the Earth when I'm menstruating. So, for me, my lack of flow has left me feeling a lack of flow. My hormones feel ALL over the place. My mood swings at the drop of a hat, and I cry really easily over things I wouldn't normally cry about.
I ain't trippin' though, and I'll tell you why-- all this postpartum stuff is acting like a magnifying glass for wounds that have lived deep inside of me long before I was ever pregnant. This journey is making it so that I can't ignore them anymore, and for that, I am grateful.
When it comes to healing practices I am ALL about Eastern + Western. I mean, why do so many people insist on worshiping one and poo-pooing the other?? Like, give me ALL the ways to heal. I'll take the pills and the reiki, knowwhatimsayin'? I like to be 'bi' in all the things that I do... *wink*.
(I'm also determined to change my nutrition, which I believe is neither Eastern nor Western, but simply the answer to everything. I'm 32 and though I love healthy food, I've never been able to cut out unhealthy food for any extended period of time. I'm currently approaching two weeks no sugar, and have cut out most inflammation-causing foods, but more on this in another post).
My midwife, Tiffany Hoffman of Sacred Space Midwifery & Holistic Healing, is on an incredible mission to change pre and postpartum care in this country, right now in Nevada where it is desperately needed. Body and energy work done during pregnancy, and after, can have major effects on the success of the labor/birth experience, as well as the pregnant and postpartum woman. So much of this stuff is at the heart of Women's Health issues, and I'm so grateful Spirit lead me to her.
Yesterday, while still waiting for results of my blood work, I booked a session with Tiffany for a postpartum ritutal called "The Closing of the Bones".
"Closing of the Bones" is a [Mexican] postpartum healing ceremony, which was created to nurture the mother after her passage through giving birth, and her journey into motherhood. It is a celebration, a setting of sacred space, and a way to nurture Mom & baby. [source]
For our session, Tiffany first had me draw some cards. I asked the cards, "Why am I walking this postpartum journey?". Both of our jaws dropped when I drew the "Pearl" and "Mother Meng" cards. (Like, okay I get it, Universe. All of this is happening so that I would birth this Sacred Pearl Shamanism path and website).
Then she had me lie down and listen to a guided meditation for the Uterus, while she gave me reiki and gentle massage with intuitive feedback communication; when deep-seated emotions would come up, and she would ask me questions, digging deeper into them, and have me completely feel the emotions before moving on.
Then, she performed the "Closing of the Bones". After I was fully wrapped, I rested in the feeling of being totally held. She spoke a prayer over me, letting my body know that it had given birth and that I was no longer pregnant--that my body could return to operating for me and me alone.
The feeling of presence and rest was delicious. After a short time in silence, I began to hear a song in my head and started laughing and singing it. She decided that this meant the ceremony was complete, and began to take my wraps off. She had me remove the last one.
As we stepped into her sitting area to decompress, I didn't have the words to talk about how I was feeling. Not because the experience had been particularly "mind-blowing" (it was actually the definition of gentle), but because I was *so* present in my body that it was hard to think about language. So we just sat there.
This morning I feel optimistic, calm, and honestly...a little bloated (!!)
If you are or know a woman on her pregnancy or postpartum journey, check out Tiffany's services for things you/she may be needing -- just a few sessions can bring more comfort and healing to the most life-changing journey any woman can ever go on. I wish so much that I had done more of this stuff prenatal.
Tiffany and I are currently putting together a package that includes both of us in these ceremonies, so, LAWD, GET READY FOR THAT!
Thanks for reading! If you are suffering, you are not alone. It's time to share our stories.
The theory of Shadow Play, as developed by Jessica, is:
If we make art with our shadows, we won't have to live them.
If your life is currently run by your shadow, you may try exercising your shadow in a safe place, which will have the affect of lessening its control over your life. But, tread lightly! Shadow Play is not for the meek; it's a place where you will be encouraged to take a honest look at yourself, discover and confess pieces of your personality that you've disowned, and then embody those pieces in ceremony.
In Jungian psychology, the "shadow" is the unconscious aspect of the personality which the conscious ego does not identify in itself, or the entirety of the unconscious, (i.e., everything of which a person is not fully conscious). In short, the shadow is the "dark side". Oftentimes, we project these non-integrated pieces of ourselves onto other people, and they show up in our lives as enemies, bullies, frustrations, and drama.